Wanna here something really weird, I just broke down and cried. That happens once every ten years for me. What the hell's going on. I live by myself and i'm just typing on a friggin computer.
Tyrone van leyen
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Posting elders names involved in your dismissal
by Tyrone van leyen ini have been reluctant to post my bio because when i wrote it, i was angry.
it's not that bad although a little long.
the one thing thats stopping me is i have posted their names on it.
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Posting elders names involved in your dismissal
by Tyrone van leyen ini have been reluctant to post my bio because when i wrote it, i was angry.
it's not that bad although a little long.
the one thing thats stopping me is i have posted their names on it.
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Tyrone van leyen
One more question for this thread for anyone who might come here. What is an acceptable length for a bio, where should i post it, and is it too early in the game. I have funny feelings about getting sympathy from anyone. Do I need it maybe,but there are others i'm sure who have been hurt worse. It's nice to have people though who can relate to me even in small ways and I do enjoy reading others stories. All I have to do now is remove incriminating names and take out 10,000 swear words and were off to the races
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Posting elders names involved in your dismissal
by Tyrone van leyen ini have been reluctant to post my bio because when i wrote it, i was angry.
it's not that bad although a little long.
the one thing thats stopping me is i have posted their names on it.
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Whew, thank god I asked that question. I post my name because I refuse to be ashamed of this. Iv'e lived with shame for too long. However a mistake such as the one above could have ruined things for me. I'll get the hang of this, Thanks folks. incidently if their wasn't libel suits involved would you do it?
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Posting elders names involved in your dismissal
by Tyrone van leyen ini have been reluctant to post my bio because when i wrote it, i was angry.
it's not that bad although a little long.
the one thing thats stopping me is i have posted their names on it.
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Tyrone van leyen
I have been reluctant to post my bio because when I wrote It, I was angry. It's not that bad although a little long. The one thing thats stopping me is I have posted their names on it. When i'm angry I want to post their names. I don't know however, if this is the right thing to do cause when i'm not mad I think that some of you were elders and you had families but you arn't jerks anymore. In theory they are not supposed to be on the net but they could hear about it from someone else. But why should I care. Did they afford us any annonymity? But then again two wrongs don't make a right do they? Yet they are the continuously the perpetrators of injustice. How do some of you feel about this. Just wondering. I'm not sure if that would help me or if it even matters. but it might help me to decide what to do, to hear what some of you have to say.
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circuit overseer demands elders destroy my records
by Tyrone van leyen insomething very unusual happened the other day.
after 20 years of being treated like satan, my mother spoke with the visiting co. and told him my story.
he was disgusted with the elders who did this to me..... according to my mother he was furious.
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Now I see,you are not trying to judge me. I took a walk after my last post and I felt a little guilty for talking about myself so publicly. I just want peace, Iv'e turned into a hermit in the last couple of years, very introspective. I'm sorry if I came across harshly on my last post. Im starting to build trust and youv'e put my mind at ease. I entered this posting business fearful that I wouldn't not be able to control my anger. Youv'e all helped that because I feel like i'm being understood, thank you. I must admit however I must push myself to even talk to people.
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Did You Ever REALLY Love "Jehovah God"?
by minimus inlooking back, honestly, do you think you ever really loved jehovah??
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Even though I rely on science and logic to rule my life I like your spirit bible reader
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Did you ever drink at the hall?
by kid-A inor show up half-sloshed???
or even a really bad hang-over??
lol..... at the pique of my "rebellious" phase when i was about 16-18, i often smuggled in a small mickey of drambuie or baileys then snuck off into the library for .
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Tyrone van leyen
personally, my whole life as a witness, I never took a sip. The po who was responsible for turning the congregation on me did though. We used to say he had a nose like rudolph behind his back. He is now deceased. I think his drinking was related to this because he died with tremendous stomach problems. I guess he followed Rutherfords footsteps. Rutherford died of colon cancer. How ironic and yet strangly fitting, an ass hole who dies of cancer of the ass hole. Sorry for being so crude, but both these men destroyed families and I consider Rutherford the greatest watchtower villian of all time.
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How do I deal with my hatred?
by nicolaou ini know that thousands of you have gone through the same thing i'm facing but right now it doesn't help.
i know that some of you have faced much worse - losing family through the blood issue or having to deal with abuse and i know that in comparison my problems may seem not so severe but as bad as it sounds knowing all that just doesn't matter right now.. it started yesterday and there's no stopping it, the official shunning.
one member of the family right now will see the month end with me losing my sisters, brother and my mum.. i love them and i know that in a sense they are victims too but i just cannot reach them.
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I know exactly how you feel,I too realize being angry all the time is not healthy for the mind or soul as well as relationships. In the past I thought I had it beat. Been at it a long time. I beleive if you forgive someone and then one day you run into a situation that brings back all those hateful feelings have you really forgiven them. The problem is you can't forgive them because they don't acknowledge theyve even done anything wrong and the stupid behaviour and comments continue. It's a catch 22 situation that is difficult to walk away from because your family is involved. I've thought everything out and even thought that time would heal all but it's not happening either. I'm thinking now, that therapy and things like this board are more helpful to produce better coping stategies. I also think for people born into this crapola have the hardest time to let go. Good luck, i'm right where you are buddy
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Did You Ever REALLY Love "Jehovah God"?
by minimus inlooking back, honestly, do you think you ever really loved jehovah??
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Well minimus, good question. When I was 6 years old my mother gave me a terrible haircut and I complained about it so my mother sent me to my room. I saw no escape from this perceived injustice so I proceeded to pray to Jehovah and waited. Nothing happened so I decided If god wouldn't help me I would pray to Satan. Guess what, he did nothing either so I concluded that neither of them existed. There was no love evident to me either. However as I got older and read the bible myself I was drawn to the gospels and greatly admired him. Even felt he should be given more impotance than Jehovah. However,despite my love of a good story theres the ugly reality of life. I chose to be good and reject evil I had to do this as I was in a state of phycosis and couldn't trust myself or god. I would now describe myself as a secular humanist.
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circuit overseer demands elders destroy my records
by Tyrone van leyen insomething very unusual happened the other day.
after 20 years of being treated like satan, my mother spoke with the visiting co. and told him my story.
he was disgusted with the elders who did this to me..... according to my mother he was furious.
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Juni I think has got it and it makes me wonder if those after those changes felt any remorse. My father must have known about these changes as well. Talk about being born at the wrong time. Incidently I don't like skeptics who think i'm a liar. Especially as i'm new here. The last thing I need to hear is someone saying they don't beleive me. I have my war wounds from 6 years on the streets and 7 years at the YMCA as a result and don't think I don't know the doctrines either dude. I was actually one of the guys that listened. Not beleiving me is something I would expect from a typical witness. What ^$&%^& reason would I have to make this shit up.